So the rambling begins...

An interesting start...

It's a wonder how a person can sleep at all, with so many geopolitical conflicts, lead in toys, yammering politicians, changes in daylight savings time and the Red Sox winning another world Series. 

I was up early today, not because A. was up early to go to a conference, just because. Now, at 8 am, I'm wide awake with that groggy, not-enough-sleep feeling. My coffee is cool and needs to be refreshed, and although the sun has just risen, I have no desire to go outside and take pictures. That's what lack of sleep will do. The cold wouldn't bother me, normally. Lazy day Saturdays do mean lazy.

Now for a tangent: I have always been an anxious person. I remember, specifically from my youth, when I first learned about AIDS. I remember being paranoid I was going to catch it. A child's ignorance can drive fear to a rather irrational level, and I was never comfortable enough to voice my fears. Now, at a point in my life where I am significantly less ignorant, I have less irrational fears. It seems to be a strange paradox that with understanding of how dangerous the world truly is, a person has less fear of it. To know truly what a nuclear bomb can do, or how a disease can ravage a body. As a scientist, I know some of the inner working of these objects, these afflictions, and yet, I fear them less.

Rationality is what overcomes fear, or at least keeps it at bay. That's how I start my Saturday, drinking coffee, thinking about fear. Coffee does help though, at least with the groggy feeling. Apple spice for a cold fall day.